i have no idea

well all of our family is finally gone. my aunt and cousins came down and that was a pain in the butt. i swear if you give her daughter one wrong look or don't do everything you're doing with her it's like..i don't know, it just gets ugly. her and my other cousin, who's staying with her for the time being, got into a fight because she accused us of leaving her oldest daughter out, which we both agreed was a bunch of crap, cause she had been around us all day..i mean she stuck to us like glue, and to tell you the truth i didn't care for that much at all. hmm...lets see, i got a jim brickman cd, he plays all piano, but he's like really good. i think my piano teacher knows him..she wanted me to get the cd because i was playing one of his songs he had arranged or whatever and she said that if i was gonna play his music/arrangements or whatever you wanna call them then i needed to get his cd and listen to him so..i did, and she said he never uses a book to play and just makes his own arrangements of songs he plays..he's really good. don't really know what i'm doing this week. i talked about going to the movies tomorrow but i don't know if that's gonna happen, and then i'm going to get my hair done again on thursday so that should be fun i guess, and then i think i'm for sure going to the movies friday, so i guess we'll just have to see.
 
today has been pretty stressful, and i don't like it. it's one of those days where i feel like i could just cry and not stop...it's been a long, long day. finding out too much information at once isn't too good for me i don't think so..whatever.my stomach feels like it's been tied in knots over and over again... i guess we'll see what happens...plus school starts monday, which i'm happy about yet i'm dreading horribly. i really don't like that place..i'm just glad it's my last year, so i guess it'll be ok. well that's pretty much it i think so i'm gonna go. later

well i didn't really do anything today, much like basically every other day in my life. i snapped beans for a while..or actually a really long time, and then left to go to piano. came home, snapped the rest of the beans and then got on here...school starts in a week and a half and i'm not looking forward to it at all. my aunt may be coming in tomorrow, which i guess is ok. well there's not much left to say, so later.

Well I haven't written in here in a while...but oh well. As of now everything's good, I just need to talk to a few ppl and make sure of that, and then of course hope it all stays that way. So I'm good. Went to Megan's yesterday and stayed. We went and watched Fatastic Four with a few ppl, and then came home and rode her fourwheeler forever. Then I went home at about 2:30 today..after not sleeping, at all...and drove around town with mom while she did what she needed to do, and then came home, was here about 3 hours, and then went back to the movies and watched War of the Worlds...which was very good. I wanna go watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and I'm sure I will soon enough. Well I don't think there's much more to say, and I'm sure you're all sick of reading this so..later.

well i'm back...yay for me. it was pretty good, except for monday..gosh i hate spending days, esp. holidays if you wanna consider the 4th of july a holiday..but anyways, i hate spending them with other ppls family. it makes me feel awkward. plus i hate getting asked a million questions about what grade i'm in and what i'm gonna do after i graduate. oh well it's over now...anyways, i found out something about someone i know yesterday, and i had a pretty rough night last night. i think it was just because it scared the crap out of me, and i didn't know anything about it until after it had happened. all of a sudden i just had a thousand scary thoughts run through my mind about the things that could've happened. actually for some reason now, it's like everytime i get upset or mad about something, instead of wanting to scream or yell i just break down and start crying. i don't know what's gotten into me. oh well, i just need someone to talk to, and i hope i get over this soon. but on some good news, i'm no longer "tied down," and if you don't know what i mean then ask, cause not many of you know what i could be talking about. but yeah at least things are good about that. i don't really have much else to say so, i'm gonna go now. later