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8月1日 if you're my dream...please come truewell all of our family is finally gone. my aunt and cousins came down and that was a pain in the butt. i swear if you give her daughter one wrong look or don't do everything you're doing with her it's like..i don't know, it just gets ugly. her and my other cousin, who's staying with her for the time being, got into a fight because she accused us of leaving her oldest daughter out, which we both agreed was a bunch of crap, cause she had been around us all day..i mean she stuck to us like glue, and to tell you the truth i didn't care for that much at all. hmm...lets see, i got a jim brickman cd, he plays all piano, but he's like really good. i think my piano teacher knows him..she wanted me to get the cd because i was playing one of his songs he had arranged or whatever and she said that if i was gonna play his music/arrangements or whatever you wanna call them then i needed to get his cd and listen to him so..i did, and she said he never uses a book to play and just makes his own arrangements of songs he plays..he's really good. don't really know what i'm doing this week. i talked about going to the movies tomorrow but i don't know if that's gonna happen, and then i'm going to get my hair done again on thursday so that should be fun i guess, and then i think i'm for sure going to the movies friday, so i guess we'll just have to see. today has been pretty stressful, and i don't like it. it's one of those days where i feel like i could just cry and not stop...it's been a long, long day. finding out too much information at once isn't too good for me i don't think so..whatever.my stomach feels like it's been tied in knots over and over again...  i guess we'll see what happens...plus school starts monday, which i'm happy about yet i'm dreading horribly. i really don't like that place..i'm just glad it's my last year, so i guess it'll be ok. well that's pretty much it i think so i'm gonna go. later7月27日 asdfhsdawell i didn't really do anything today, much like basically every other day in my life. i snapped beans for a while..or actually a really long time, and then left to go to piano. came home, snapped the rest of the beans and then got on here...school starts in a week and a half and i'm not looking forward to it at all. my aunt may be coming in tomorrow, which i guess is ok. well there's not much left to say, so later. 7月21日 i'm boredwell yesterday i went to knoxville and bought some stuffs. dolan was supposed to go to my aunts but decided to be a fag instead and didn't go. so unfortunately i have no break from him whatsoever this summer. screw him. anyways, i'm trying to enjoy the last 2 weeks of summer left. mom said she's gotta go to the school tomorrow with dad for registration or something like that.....i hate school. i'm just glad it's almost over for me.  means i'm even closer to moving out..oh yeah. today i slept until like 1, and started cleaning my room out, because i decided yesterday that i wanted a small love seat type thing in my room instead of that chair and all. and once graduation comes i'm gonna be putting more stuff in there too...i don't know, we'll see what happens. i guess that's about it..later.7月19日 :Swell my granny and her sister/my aunt are here, and they're leaving tomorrow to go to tennessee...and they're taking dolan with them!  and then i'm going to knoxville with my mom and dad, which is good in the sense that i get to buy new stuff and all, but i hate spending days with them...by myself. it makes me feel uncomfortable. oh well, i guess i'll get over it. school starts in 3 weeks and and i'm not looking forward to it, aside from the fact i get to graduate. yay for me. i'm still stuck at home. oh well, maybe i'll get more freedom...yeah right. well don't really have much more to say..everything's going pretty well i guess. i need to make a phone call, but i can't bring myself to do it...kind of intimidating for some reason. oh well, i'm sure we'll talk sooner or later. welp that's about it...later.7月15日 poopWell I haven't written in here in a while...but oh well. As of now everything's good, I just need to talk to a few ppl and make sure of that, and then of course hope it all stays that way. So I'm good. Went to Megan's yesterday and stayed. We went and watched Fatastic Four with a few ppl, and then came home and rode her fourwheeler forever. Then I went home at about 2:30 today..after not sleeping, at all...and drove around town with mom while she did what she needed to do, and then came home, was here about 3 hours, and then went back to the movies and watched War of the Worlds...which was very good. I wanna go watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and I'm sure I will soon enough. Well I don't think there's much more to say, and I'm sure you're all sick of reading this so..later. 7月6日 sldfhlsdhfwell i'm back...yay for me. it was pretty good, except for monday..gosh i hate spending days, esp. holidays if you wanna consider the 4th of july a holiday..but anyways, i hate spending them with other ppls family. it makes me feel awkward. plus i hate getting asked a million questions about what grade i'm in and what i'm gonna do after i graduate. oh well it's over now...anyways, i found out something about someone i know yesterday, and i had a pretty rough night last night. i think it was just because it scared the crap out of me, and i didn't know anything about it until after it had happened. all of a sudden i just had a thousand scary thoughts run through my mind about the things that could've happened. actually for some reason now, it's like everytime i get upset or mad about something, instead of wanting to scream or yell i just break down and start crying. i don't know what's gotten into me. oh well, i just need someone to talk to, and i hope i get over this soon. but on some good news, i'm no longer "tied down," and if you don't know what i mean then ask, cause not many of you know what i could be talking about. but yeah at least things are good about that. i don't really have much else to say so, i'm gonna go now. later 7月1日 i don't wanna go :(well i'm going to south carolina tomorrow, and i'm sure you're all very happy. no deborah for...3 days i think. so enjoy yourselves while it lasts, although i don't really do anything to anyone, i mean i don't even msg anyone, but oh well. i really really don't wanna go, but whatever. my parents are already making plans to go to florida again this christmas although they said last year they weren't going to. but parents never do what they say they're gonna do so whatever. at least they're actually considering flying down there this year instead of freaking driving. but whatever that's at least 5 1/2 months away so...well see. i went to a friends b-day party today. it was fun, and i saw quite a few ppl i hadn't seen in a while, so that was fun. afterwards we went to walmart...and as we were walking towards the bathroom...for dolan of course...he all of a sudden starts freaking out saying, omg did you not just see that woman. she was like crying saying hold on dad..and i mean she was crying horrible. haha, and every since then dolan has been like omg, that is so creepy, i feel the presence of death. but some woman cashier lady who asked what was going on and so we told her what happened and she said that they had just been standing in the line next to her and he had gotten really sick and they had to go sit him down. he was really old, and when i went to go look at what dolan was talking about, i saw 2 guys putting him on the ground and i swear he looked like he was as pale as a ghost. it was so weird. dolan automatically assumed he died, and no one even knows what really happened. oh well, i just hope he's ok. well that's about it for now. later 6月28日 skjfhskdjfhwell i haven't really written anything in here in a while, but that's only because i haven't really done anything. i went to the movies friday and watched bewitched...and i didn't like it. i didn't really figure i would anyways, but i had nothing else to do, so i went to watch it. i'm going to a friend's house this friday for his birthday, so that should give me something to do. and then saturday i'm going to south carolina to see some friends of my parents, and i'm not looking forward to it. i'd much rather spend my fourth of july somewhere else or with someone else then going to south carolina. i mean my gosh why can't they come over here, we always go there..oh well. i have no other choice so i guess i'll get over it. i'm just hoping i can get another cd made before then cause i've only got 2 that i'm actually gonna listen to. just hope my parents don't ask what i'm listening to. oh well that's about it for now. later 6月21日 it's all goodwell i woke up to dad yelling at me because i didn't get up the first time he told me too, which he shouldn't have yelled seeing as how it had been an hour since he had told me the first time, so he should've realized i wasn't getting up about 15 min after i was still in my room. whatever, so i was up for about 2 hours and then dolan decided he wanted to go to the movies so seeing as how i had nothing to do i decided to go. we watched batman begins, which unlike a few ppl said, was very good. the real world comes on tonight..and i can't wait. well, don't know what i'm gonna do until then, so whatever. i'll shut up for now. later 6月20日 hmm....well i'm not really doing anything, just watching some new series on abc family called wildfire because there's nothing else on..i don't think, or at least i'm to lazy to look...and reading some question and answer thing on mtv.com with those stupid poser mobile guys at the top, my gosh i hate those guys and their freaking commercials. i think dad just got home cause dolan is in the kitchen talking, and i'm hoping he's not talking to himself. oh well, this has basically been, i don't know, a waste of mine and your time so i guess i'll just shut up now and go. 6月16日 there isn't a titlewelp guess what ppls...i'm bored. i swear i get so sick of even hearing myself say that. but oh well, it's not my fault i have nothing to do or no one to hang out with. mom got me a cool piano book, and i know about half the songs in the book, but who cares, i actually like it and wanna play the piano now. wow...can't you just imagine, i wanna play the piano. yeah yeah whatever. i talk to much, which i'm really not talking, i'm typing, but...yeah. and i also just realized, ok well i've known for a long time but at least i'm admitting it...but anyways what i was gonna say, is that i say a bunch of useless/dumb stuff that no one really cares about. welp who cares, i'll be fine, or at least i am so far...but the question is...how long will that last? 6月13日 some stupid guy won't leave me aloneWell today started off weird. I woke up to Dolan knocking and walking into my room asking for my camera, which I thought was weird, but didn't really care because I was really tired. But then about 5 minutes later, dad comes inside and tells me that there's a baby deer just laying in the front yard. So of course I'm gonna go outside and see it. I swear it was so small, and once I got down there to see it, it had some maggots on it...it was really sad. So after making a billion phone calls, they finally found some guy who would take it...which was good. So anyways, other than that, nothing has really happened, and it's been a really short day, so whatever. later 6月12日 boys and girls..some movie i've never heard of :swell i'm bored...of course, not a big shock. i don't really have anything to talk about, so i don't know why i'm even writing anything in here. i don't know what the crap i'm gonna do this week, but whatever. hmmm....well this was pretty much useless in wasting my time typing, and there's some noise in our wall, although dad says it's the speakers, but i must say i don't really belive that....ummm ooooooook. anyways i'm gonna shut up now. later 6月10日 no more summer school :)well i'm done with summer school, and i passed everything...which means, i'm a senior. umm, well i don't really know what to say, then again i never do...someone talk to me! well whatever i'm gonna shut up. later 6月7日 i need to talk to someoneWell I've got school tomorrow, but hopefully I won't be there all day. I've just got about 2 pages of this paper left and I should be done. I'm really bored..of course, and I need to talk to someone about something, cause I don't know what to do, and they're the only person I trust to talk to about it. But I guess I'll talk to them when I get a chance. Well I guess I don't really know what else to say, so I'll just shut up. later 6月6日 it's late...and i'm tiredwell it's late and i'm tired. well it's not really that late, but i didn't get much sleep last night, so it's late. i'm actually in a way almost done with this paper, or at least the rough draft of it. but if i can get it done tonight tomorrow should be a breeze...as long as i pass everything. but i'm actually thinking about just stopping now, cause 2 more pages of this won't be or at least shouldn't be to hard to write tomorrow. besides maybe sleep will help me think better. but who knows. i don't really have much or well anything else to say. i'm still a little frustrated over some things that only about 2 of you know about, so i guess you 2 will just have to keep listening to me, but that's your choice. and one of you needs to call me..haha you know who you are. actually i kind of feel bad cause i keep bugging you about it, but oh well. so i guess i'll just shut up now. later 6月4日 jgfjlsgfsldkgfwell i'm good right now. i don't really want to talk about yesterday though, so everyone just forget about that entry i wrote. lets just say i'm a sucker and people say things at the right time, and it's like i just forget about what was wrong with me. i just need someone to talk to, someone needs to call, i've gotten to the point where i pretty much hate talking on here for some reason. oh well, i'm sure it'll pass, but until then someone needs to call so i'll have someone to talk to, that is if you ppl want to talk to me. 6月3日 i'm madkludfh;oasidhfo;sdhfoiashfoshdfoashdoohf, i hate being mad. cause then i get sad, and all that stupid crap. i'm stupid, but oh well. and i pretty much just wasted my time and probably yours by writing this, so i'm sorry if you read it. but whatever. 5月31日 hmm...well yesterday was good. and today started off good, until i had to wake up at 7:15 with only 15 min. to get ready. so yeah..i'm really tired, and hyper and all that stuff but oh well. i'll live. let's see, not much is really going on today, just waiting for someone to talk to, cause i'm really bored. but i don't have anything else to say, so whatever. later |
ok yeah he's home i just heard him. well yesterday, was like any old day, except of course it was father's day so i woke up, gave dad a card and a gift and then went to church. what a fun day..yeah right. so anyways, i have no idea what i'm doing tomorrow, but it doesn't really matter seeing as how i'll be asleep until at least 1 i'd say. what a fun life i've got to live. gosh i'm dumb. hmm...the new season of real world comes on tomorrow which i'll watch, of course. ever since they went to paris i've been hooked on that show, even last season which was dumb and sucked i must say. oh well...i'll probably go to the movies friday night with some ppls. haha, i'm already planning this weekend. well whatever, at least i'm gonna do something..right? oh and i've got piano wednesday, gosh i'm not really looking forward to that, seeing as how i've hardly practiced the song i'm supposed to be working on. i've played just about everything else i've got though. oh well, it's not the first time i've not practiced before, she'll live i guess.
whatever, anyways..i went to the movies last night to watch the longest yard, which was actually a pretty good movie i must say. ok...why do ppl pound meat? don't ask, i just saw someone doing it on tv, and i don't remember why they do it. oh well i'm dumb. anyways, i had the strangest dream about a guy i used to know/like last night, and what's weird is that i remember it yet i can't explain what happened. gosh i hate having dreams like that, esp. about ppl i don't really care to have dreams about. oh well, don't really know why i just said any of that but who cares, just don't ask. 
OH YEAH! but now it's summer, and i of course have nothing to do. i need ppl here to hang out with. so...yeah. anyways, tina is coming over today, and i haven't seen her in a really long time so i don't know how that's gonna work out. 
i've got summer school at least monday next week...yay for me, but hopefully that will be the last day. mom said something about going to walmart today but i don't really want to go, but i'm sure i will, just because there's nothing else to do. and i want to go to the movies, so i guess we'll see if i can somehow. so whatever. i'm just gonna shut up. later.|
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